It feels so nice to be at home again

Uh huh, yeah, the title says it already.
It feels so nice to be at home again
No other places can beat home sweet home, eh?

Say so, short journal is short.





~I will somehow keep the promise...I will.~

Bingung mau ngasih judul apa

Yak, jadi, somehow gue bisa blogging lagi dengan niat yang dipaksakan (?) *kalologamaublogginggausahbloggingnapa* /PLAK dan gue nulis ini pas sebelum gue siap-siap berangkat ke Jakarta, tapi bukan mudik, cuma liburan /PLAK

Jadi, akhir-akhir ini gue makin males OL aja, gak tahu kenapa. Pangya nggak niat, Grand Chase juga, tambahan juga Lineage udah nggak pernah gue sentuh. Mungkin gue harus hiatus dulu kali ya.

Buat hari ini sama tiga hari kedepan, gue nggak bakal OL, ya karena nggak mungkin bawa desktop ke hotel =)) Gue mulai online lagi paling Senin depan, jadi kalo rindu sama gue *halah* silakan buzz gue di YM mulai dari Senen /PLAK

FBpun gue nggak bakal OL, dikarenakan HP gue pulsanya bures =)) tapi nih ya, bagi yang mau SMS-an sama gue silakan~~ =))

Ngg yah, jadi akhir-akhir ini gue nambahin render gue dengan render SW yang ukurannya gede-gede >_> resolusi 2,000 px ke atas, makannya ukurannya gede-gede =))
Dan, gue banyak nge-donlot brush baru dari deviantART, emang mantep tuh jadi tempat brushes :))

Terus soal forumming, gue makin lama makin nggak aktif aja >_> Gak tahu kenapa, nggak niat xD Yang sering gue kunjungin paling PHRPGF, itupun rata-rata cuma ngisi absensi udah gitu pergi lagi, terus RF (baca: Realta Fantasia) paling cuma nunggu Xin Mei (karakter ketiga) komentar, edit udah gitu pergi lagi.

Untuk kehidupan gaming, sekarang gue lagi demen-demennya mainin DJ Portable Max Black Square. Gue pengin dapet Classiqual (eh bener nggak ya) edition xDDD

FF gue yang Over The Sky, kalo misalnya kalian yang baca posting ini juga baca OTS, maaf, itu gue hiatusin dulu sampe ada pemberitahuan. Gue sekarang juga mau siap-siap buat UTS yang menjelang, dan gue lagi nggak ada ide buat lanjutin, mungkin bakal gue rewrite, jadi tunggu further notice ya~~ xDD

Terus tadi baru aja...

Tch. Don't get all dictatorial on me. Who do you think you are? Even you are my father that doesn't mean you can do whatever you want at me. That's no excuse. You've made my heart dead. You've hurt my heart, not just once, but twice, and more. You are always right, and you will always right, no matter what I do.

Shut up. Just go and die already.





~I will somehow keep the promise...I will.~

Gaming Life and Some Stuffs

Yak, gue akhirnya balik dengan segudang kegajean.
Kali ini gue mau cerita tentang gaming life gue, yahh...
Gue mulai main game sejak kelas 4 SD. Waktu itu, game RPG yang pertama gue mainin adalah Atelier Iris 2: The Azoth of the Destiny makannya sampe sekarang gue nggak bisa lupa sama game itu.
Dan akhir-akhir ini, gue jadi suka game genre hack 'n slash kayak DW, SW sama WO
Ahaha, geje banget gaming life gue

Jadi, gue mau cerita tentang Persona 3 Portable gue dulu
Gue main female protagonist, tapi sialnya, andai Empress S.Link gue sempetin Max sama Magician sialannya gue tinggal 1 level lagi, udah keburu tanggal 31 Januari ==;a
Fortune juga ==; padahal kalo gue max, bisa buat Orpheus Teleos tuh ==

Compedium gue udah tiga perempat jalan!! Yess di playthrough ketiga ini gue bakalan buat Compedium 100 % =))

Sekarang, gue mau cerita tentang Over the Sky sama sekuel-nya, The Road of No Return

Over the Sky
"I don't really want to go back to the future...It was a fun time yet thrilling in here. But anyways, I wish you all well. And for Lu Xun, I will treasure your head dress. Forever." The jade eyed girl smiled, her eyes are teary. The young strategist smiled, he tries hard to hold his tears.

"I wish you prosperity in future, Lady Yue Ran. You have fought well. I will keep your charm. I will cherish it forever." Yue Ran nodded, and unexpectedly, she walked towards the young strategist and raised her arms, warped Lu Xun's neck.

"!" Lu Xun perplexed, his golden eyes opened wide. But once he grind on the ground, his eyes gentled, and the young officer smiled. He raised his bracelet circled arms and warped the young girl's neck.

"I love you, Lu Xun." Yue Ran whispered. "Even though if we are apart...We are still connected, right? Even almost 1810 years separated us...I will always remember you." She whispered, her eyes are sparkling with tears. She is reluctant to left her lover alone.

"I love you too, Yue Ran." Lu Xun replied softly, he tightened his grip on the young girl's neck. "Yes, we will always stay connected. No matter how much time that separates us, or how much distance. I will always cherish our moment together."

The Road of No Return
"I can't turn back now, I reluctant to go forward either. But anyways, and anyhow, I don't believe miracle exist. So there's small possibilities I will return. Anyways...I got to protect the past and the future. Probably."

Udah ah wa harus off dulu == Oyasumi~



~I will somehow keep the promise...I will.~

My Autobiography

Ini sebenernya ditag Mimo di FB, cuma nggak tahu FB gue ngeror ato apalah gue ga bisa buka notes, jadi gue isi di sini aja.

Rules: Once you've been tagged, Fill this out and repost as, "My Autobiography" And use your own answers, not anyone else's.

1. Where did you take your profile pic?
I made it on my own

2. What exactly are you wearing right now?

My uniform

3. What is your current problem?

What are you going to do?

4. What makes you happy the most?

If I can disappear...

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?

Bokutachi ni aru mono - Romi Paku

6. Any celeb you would marry?

Hell no

7. Name someone with the same birthday as you?

Dunno

8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?

You bet

9. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?

Yeah, like I care anyways

10. Do you still watch kiddie movies or kiddie TV shows?

Dun watch TV...

11. Do you speak any languages?

Indonesian, English, Japanese, a little French and Sundanese

12. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away?

What are you talking to?

13. What is something that really annoys you?

If someone kept bugging me and talks behind my back

Chapter 1:

1. Middle name: Monika

2. Nickname(s) = Rizu, Rijuk, Mama Riju, etc..

3. Current location= Bandung

4. Eye color = brown

Chapter 2:

1. Do you get along well with your parents? I dunno, probably not

Chapter 3: Favorites

1. Ice cream = Chocolate

2. Season = Autumn

3. Shampoo/condition = ...Why did you want to know?

Chapter 4: Do You...

1.Dance in the shower? = Sometimes

2. Do you write on your hand?= Nah

3. Call people back? = No

4. Believe in love? = Yeah

5. Any bad habits? = Dun want to list it here

6. Any mental health issues? Probably

Chapter 5: Have You....

1. Broken a bone? = No

2. Sprained anything?= Maybe

3. Had physical therapy? = Hell no

4. Gotten stitches? = No

5. Taken painkillers? = Yeah

6. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling? = Nah, haven't

7. Been stung by a bee? = No. I would probably already dead, stupid

Chapter 6: Who/What was the last

1. Movie you watch? = Dunno, haven't watch any movies in long time

2. Three people to text you? = Daphne, Nicola and Alba

3. Person you called? = None

5. Person you tackled? = Three days ago? Nathaniel

6. Person you talked to on MSN? = Dun have messenger

7. Thing you touched? = Mouse and keyboard

8. Thing you ate? = Fish stick

9. Thing you drank? = Cold water

10. Thing you said? = Shut up

HOW I END MY SENTENCES

1. I love: = My friends

2. People would say that = Whaddaya mean?

3. I don't understand = ..Who knows?

4. When I wake up in the morning = Go back to sleep

5. I lost my = emotion

6. Life is full of = pain

7. My past = I don't wanna talk about it

8. I get annoyed very quickly when = someone talks behind my back

9. Parties are = I don't care

10. I wish IN life = I would eventually disappear...

11: Dogs are = Whatnot

12. Cats are = Who cares

13. Tomorrow is = Tuesday

14. I have a low tolerance for = people who annoys me

15. If I had a million dollars I would = save it

Yosh, udah bikin tugas lagi *ngibrit dari blog*


~I will somehow keep the promise...I will.~

Grand Chase, Pangya and stuffs

Yak
Maaf gue jarang update lagi sekarang, entah kenapa sekarang gue lebih milih main game online sama FBan dibanding blogging *PLAK*
Jadi, di post gue kali ini, gue mau bahas Grand Chase sama Pangya, dua-duanya sama-sama dari publisher yang sama, yaitu ntreev cuma gue main GC Indo bukan USA.

Grand Chase itu imut banget desain karakternya~~
Jadi, gue sekarang baru level 16 pake Lire, level 2 pake Arme dan level 1 pake Elesis
Maap aja gue merasa lebih enak pake Lire wakakakakakaa *PLAK*

Dan, Pangya gue udah jarang main
Karena gue jadi lebih suka Grand Chase wakakakakaka *PLAK*
TAPI PAYAH MASA GC CRASH MLULU *ngamuk*

Jadi udah ah gue balik dulu ke pangya ==

Hng terus gue pengin nulis random stuff dikit

Hubungan gue sama Shin jadi kayak temen biasa. Hahaha, this is how it should be.

Terus, Persona 3 P gue...
AAAA MASA GUE GA BISA BUAT ALICE CUMA GARA-GARA KURANG NATA TAISHI DOAAANNGG *jedotin kepala ke tembok*
Bagi yang tau cara fuse Nata Taishi, tolong dong kasik tahu gue ==a

Udah gitu, back to life school mmkay?
Haha, gue tau
Gue ga boleh merasa kayak gini.
Dia ga punya perasaan apapun sama gue, tapi, who knows? Maybe he falls for another girl, or even me.
Haha, pokoknya dia memang tidak terlalu punya banyak teman karena personality-nya yang suka bengong di siang bolong, tapi dia anak yang baik kok

Lalu, gue akhir-akhir ini sering bertanya sama diri gue sendiri
Apa arti keberadaan gue kalau gue ga bisa melindungi orang yang berharga buat gue?
What is the meaning of my life if I can't protect those who are dear to me?
Even if I have power, if I couldn't protect them, it would be meaningless.
Bahkan jika aku punya kekuatan, jika aku tidak bisa melindungi mereka, aku tidak berharga. Aku tidak berarti.
Where could I obtain power to protect them? To protect them from harm? To embrace them within my wings? I don't know. It is my inner strength that determines it?

Shin, Nathan, and everyone...My friends, everyone...

I know since the very beginning, that I would sacrifice everything for them. Yes, everything.

Oh well, going back to Pangya~ -kicked-


~I will somehow keep the promise...I will.~

Yesterday Incident

Yah, dari judulnya aja ketahuan kan? =w=;~
Gue mau cerita tentang insiden kemarin =w=;

Yah jadi kemarin biasa aja gue sekolah, ketemu sama temen temen, yah salah satunya temen gue yang gue bilang di post sebelumnya, yah gue panggilnya Nathan.
Nah kan istirahat nih, entah kenapa gue lagi pengin sendiri padahal biasanya gue hang out sama temen-temen gue, Ruth en Joana. Yah gue gatau lah, tapi kemarin pas istirahat gue moody banget, jadi gue sendirian di depan kelas sambil nyandar ke tembok sekolah, liatin orang lalu lalang.

Dan beres istirahat adalah pelajaran B. Mandarin, jadi yah kita dibacain hasil ulangan pas minggu lalu.
Dan entah kenapa, tiba-tiba bayangan tentang kakak gue melintas di benak gue.

Ya jadi kan Ruth temen sebangku gue, dia orang Toraja. Jadi dia tanya,

"Glo lo kenapa?"

Yah gue jawab, "Nggak, gue gapapa..." Padahal beneran hati gue sakit kalo inget itu lagi, dan kakak gue adalah hal paling terakhir yang mau gue inget.

Gue ngerasa air mata gue nyaris keluar jadi gue benamin aja muka gue ke dalem lengan gue.

Dan ngedadak, si Nathan balik (dia duduk di depan gue) ke arah gue

"Glor, lo nape?" dia nanya. Gue yang menggeleng aja, karena gue ga mau ketauan nangis kan
=w=;

Nah, dan ga tau dia sengaja apa enggak, dia megang tangan gue sambil ngomong,

"Lo nape Glor? Ngomong aja."

Ya udah gue akhirnya cerita aja, dan bilang.

"Kalo bukan gara-gara gue, mungkin jalan ceritanya beda. Mungkin sampe sekarang kakak gue masih ada."

Si Nathan diem dulu baru ngomong,

"Yah, kalo udah ditakdirkan mau gimana lagi, mau gimanapun pasti lo sama nyokap lo pergi juga."

Terus gue jawab, "Tapi, kalo bukan gara-gara gue yang minta beli pelampung, mungkin jalan ceritanya beda Nat, mungkin kakak gue masih ada sampe sekarang. Kakak gue baru umur 9 pas meninggal. Jalannya masih panjang."

Gue waktu itu masih ga sadar kalo dia udah bukan genggam tangan gue, tapi lebih kayak meremas gitu.

Karena gue udah mulai nangis beneran, guru gue ngeliatin tapi diem aja, terus temen temen gue yang lain (Emily, Marvel, dkk...) mulai datang ke meja gue, tapi Nathan bilang.

"Udah, hush hush, jangan datang ke sini."

Hahaha, gue merasa dilindungi banget, percaya deh.

Ruth kan ngasih tisu ke gue, jadi yah gue keringin dulu air mata gue. Nah, gue udah tenang, baru si Nathan ngomong lagi.

"Eh, lo tuh senyum dong! Wajah lo tuh aneh tau nggak kalo nggak senyum."

Haha, percaya deh, gue jadi kayak hadapan sama kakak gue aja.

Terus gue yah, berusaha menyunggingkan senyuman buat dia. Pas gue senyum, gue langsung lihat matanya berbinar-binar lembut gitu, gataulah gimana ngomongnya.

"Nah gitu dong!" Hahaha, dia kayak yang seneng banget.

Pas gue sadar, dia masih megang tangan gue, spontan aja gue lepasin dan gue nyaris jitak dia. Tapi namanya juga ada guru, mana berani gue, hahaha.

Well, if it is for you...I will smile whenever you want me to.



~If it's for him...I will smile everytime he wants me to.~

Haha, really...

Honestly, I should thanked him.

Haha, the way he holds my hand...The way he speak honestly to me...

"C'mon, smile! Your face is weird if you don't smile!"

Haha, don't tell me...All things you've done now is just to make me laugh, to make smile spread across my face...

To fall in love with the same person my friend is already in love with...How despicable.

....Dunno how that works, but it somehow makes me feel better.
Thanks.


~I wished those gentle hands warp me again...Just once more.~

Broke?

Yah bagi yang tahu, gue sendiri pun kaget.
Tadi si Shin a.k.a Reis itu buzz gue di YM, sayang gue ga OL karena gue baru pulang les >_>
Dan gue tadi cek FBnya, sumpah gue kaget setengah mati.

SHIN LO GA MUNGKIN PUTUS SAMA SI KARIN KAN?! GA MUNGKIN KAN?!
MUSTAHIL! LO YANG PUTUSIN DIA APA DIA YANG PUTUSIN LO?! XDD

Gue bukan seneng bukan apa, gue cuma...Yah ini ngomongnya gimana yah?
Bagi yang tau, Shin itu sayang setengah mati sama si Karin, sampe gue yang adiknya ini aja rada-rada dilupain.

Seneng? Enggak. Sedih? Iya.
Gue sedih karena Shin mungkin ga bisa terpikat sama cewek lain, dan gue pikir si Karin tuh udah kayak hidup-nya aja.

Ahh udah sumpah rants gue jadi geje gini

Udah ah mau donlot gc sekalian main pangya~ XD




~I wished those gentle hands warp me again...Just once more.~

Persona 3 Portable and some random stuff

Yak! Jadi, maaf gue dah lama ga nulis, maklum gue lagi sibuk sama sekolah dan main *PLAK*
Jadi, tahun ini gue OSIS. Kelas 7 gue bagian OSIS, bukan OSIS beneran jadi gue ngawasin OSIS lebih tepatnya DX

Gue nulis ini dengan koneksi yang lelet dan gue ga nyambung juga ke PHRPGF sama Facebook.

Jadi, ini entri tentang gaming lagi, kali ini Persona 3 Portable sama Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII

Pertama soal P3P dulu

Gue main female path, jadi S.Link beda, tapi jalan cerita sama.
Sebelumnya gue mau berterima kasih sama Senzai Stanley karena udah ngasih tau gimana cara nemuin pocket watch Shinjiro! Shinji hidup deh XDDD

Jadii, sekarang gue mau review dikit boleh yah?

Ini game memang ga ada perubahan dari Persona 3 buat PS2, yang beda paling cuma S.Link, Academic, Courage dan Charm (buat female path) dan juga equipped weapon. Kalo buat female protagonist, kita cuma bisa pake naginata sedangkan buat male protagonist itu cuma bisa sword, bukan rapier.
Dan yang menarik di versi PSP ini, user interface banyak mengadopsi sistem Persona 4, seperti menekan kotak untuk langsung masuk ke Town Map dan juga desain grafis yang mirip dengan Persona 4, selain itu jika yang jeli akan menyadari bahwa Calendar yang sebelumnya bisa diakses lewat System kini tidak bisa lagi dan hanya bisa dilihat di 'Your Room', kalender ada di atas tempat tidur.

Untuk dungeon, tidak banyak berubah kecuali adanya penambahan Paradigm Door yang dapat gamer akses untuk melawan boss battle sebelumnya dalam cerita, seperti contoh, Priestess Door akan membawa gamer kembali melawan Priestess yang ada di awal cerita, tentu saja dengan stats yang berbeda dan level yang mengejutkan.

Untuk Velvet Room tidak ada yang berubah, kecuali untuk female protagonist. Gamer bisa memilih siapa pemegang tome Persona Compedium, apakah Theodore atau Elizabeth.

Social Link development sekarang lebih diperdalam, antara lain lebih banyaknya auto triggered S.Link seperti Fool, Judgement, Fortune, Hermit, Chariot, dan Emperor. Social Link yang berubah di female protagonist path antara lain S.Link Moon bersama Shinjiro, S.Link Star bersama Akihiko, Fortune S.Link oleh Ryoji, Strength S.Link dengan Koromaru, dan Justice S.Link dengan Ken.

Untuk fungsi Shrine, sekarang telah dirombak. Inari Sushi yang dulu hanya bisa menggandakan uang kita sekarang bisa digunakan untuk menggandakan Skill Card yang diberikan Persona ketika mencapai level tertentu. Offertory Box dan Relationship Fortune tetap sama.

Battle Interface tidak banyak berubah, dengan mempertahankan konsep Persona 3 yang simpel dan mudah dimengerti. Yang berubah paling hanya Oracle, jika di versi PS2 harus menunggu beberapa turn sebelum bisa invoking Oracle, di versi PSP tidak perlu pakai lama, begitu gamer me-request Oracle maka Fuuka akan langsung meng-invoke Oracle.

Yang menjadi kekurangan dalam battle interface adalah ketika kita berjalan-jalan di sekitar Tartarus, gamer tidak dapat memutar kamera sehingga lebih sulit untuk memperhatikan Shadows. Selain itu, jika gamer kembali ke entrance Tartarus, HP dan SP tidak akan di-recover, tetapi untuk me-recover bisa mengakses Clock yang biasa digunakan untuk men-save game. Sistem ini bisa disamakan dengan Fox di Persona 4.

Silakan mainkan kalau mau tahu, nanti ane spoiler lagi *PLAK*

Random stuffs-nya yah?

I know this is probably too late since you may forget about me...Or even come to hate me...Probably.

I know you are a gentle person, but when it comes to protect someone important...You're as fierce as a dragon...

I know you probably can't hate someone...But who knows, right?

So, when I still got this chance...For that I may gone forever...I wanna say this thing once again...

Yeah, thanks for everything...Shin...Onii san...


~Yeah...I know this is probably too late...But...Thanks for everything until then, Onii san...~

GIMP, Pangya, Mana Khemia, and stuffs

Yak! Jadi gue balik lagi >_> dengan kabar buruk *halah*
PHOTOSHOP GUE CRASH!! Huhuhuhuhuhu *nangis geje*
Dan sebagai hasilnya, gue harus pake GIMP T.T
Gue sama sekali ga ngerti tuh GIMP, seseorang yang ngerti GIMP ajarin gue T_T

Dan akhir-akhir ini gue sering ganti template ya? Iya, sekarang gue lagi cari template blog yang bagus sama baru...Soalnya kan kalo template itu mlulu kan bosen :p

Gue sempet mikir mau buat blog baru...Tapi gue pikir, sayang juga XD Jadi yasud, jangan kuatir, ini blog pasti masih ada ;)

Jadi, akhir-akhir ini gue main pangya lagi dan barusan aja gue naik lepel jadi Beginner A XD
Yes bentar lagi jadi Junior E~~~ XDD *PLAK*

Dan, akhir-akhir ini gue main MK lagi, jadi sekarang game list gue lumayan banyak.
Ada Mana Khemia, Pangya, Odin Sphere, Warriors Orochi, Samurai Warriors dan Dynasty Warriors...

Ahh dan jangan kaget kalo misalnya kalian ke sini lagi, template dah ganti ya?! *ditabok*
Karena seperti biasa, gue lagi cari template bagus buat bulan ini :))
Nanti Agustus ganti lagi kok ;)

Stuffsnya yah...
Hmm, udah berapa lama gue ada di sini? Udah berapa orang yang gue kenal sejak pertamakali gue masuk ke dunia per-foruman? Udah sama berapa orang gue bertengkar hebat? Udah sama berapa orang yang gue crush sama dia?

Rasanya gak keitung deh.

Gue pernah bersyukur sama Tuhan YME karena Dia udah ngasih gue kesempatan buat kenalan sama berbagai orang yang ada di dunia internet dan gue bersyukur lagi karena gue udah dikasih kesempatan buat masuk ke dunia perforuman. Banyak orang yang udah ngubah kehidupan gue, dan bakalan terlalu banyak kalo gue daftarin satu-satu. Tapi sekarang gue mau kasih special thanks buat mereka yang bener-bener meninggalkan kesan mendalam di hati gue.

First of all, I want to deeply thank my Onii san, Shinryu...He has gave me encouragement to overcome many hardships and teach me how to stand up even without our close one. Thank you Onii san, without you, I wouldn't be as I am now. We haven't come in contact in each other, as you probably busy for going to a college and your relation with Karin. However, even if you forget about me...I will never forget you. Thank you Onii san, for everything.
Was yea ra knawa yor, Onii san. I am glad that I have come to know you, Brother.

And then, I want to thank Rivelino and Rion. Rino with his insanity and Rion with her kindness. You both enlighten my days as I tried hard to not to laugh alone insanely in front of the monitor. Same as Shin, we haven't come in contact for each other. Rion, how is Rivelino doing? Tell him to take my regards and tell him that my pride will never allow me to become his tools XD

Next, I want to thank people from Persona Lover Indo. Senzai Stanley, Aragi Yamato, Yukiko Tatsumi, Onee chan or Om Imo xD , Shina, Noct, and many others... Without you all, I will still sane but in boring way. Thank you for dragged me to your insanity =))

And, I want to thank people from Pandora Hearts RPG Forum. Papih, Mamih, Ulqui, Mizu, Ruu, Hayo, and everybody else I have come to known for. You guys are the best. You guys succeed making me more insane after what I've got in earlier times :) And thank you for dragging me along to Pangya =)) Thank you for entrusting me to work in there as a RP Staff, though mostly I did not do anything, except dragged new member to our insanity =)) But then again, thank you minna san.

Guys...I love you! Thank you for everything!


~I wished those gentle hands warp me again...Just once more.~