You can't lie to your own heart, yeah?

Yeah, lately I have lots of thing to be thinking of...

First post in December is already depressing, how will I turn out this whole month? LOL

Oke, cukup deh gue mau cerita

Lately, I've been messing with my own feelings, just wondering.

Even I look tough to the guys, I'm still a girl, yeah?

So that's probably I write my own personal feelings to this blog. I appear in front of everyone wearing a mask as a cheerful, strong girl, but inside, I probably...Yearn for someone to love me.

I never thought of it, but when I saw the guys with their girlfriends...I'm getting a little jealous. Not a little, but I think..I get really jealous.The females from ARA, and some other forums...I think whenever I saw them with their boyfriend, I think I got real jealous.

Hell, what I'm writing here? Shina, sorry, didn't mean it to blurt it out for you, so don't mind.

Geez, I think I'm losing my sanity here.

~The Metal Heart that Dreams of a Dramatic Night~